I ran into this odd conflict in my life past week and I thought I should share my feelings about it.
I was normally going to grocery shopping to buy something to eat after my day at work. I chose my items quickly and headed to the counters. While I was waiting in line patiently my turn I noticed that in next line where this elder woman who just came to wait in the line. Before her was this girl, about my age, holding her own shopping’s still in hand. Then the elder woman just passed her, without even asking if it was okey and started to pile her groceries on the line. Girl looked at the woman baffled and told her politely that she can’t do that, that she was there first. The woman looked at her, sniffed and said out loud – and I QUOTE everything she said – “I have a bad back and I can’t just stand here waiting. You have so minor purchases and young back that you can stand and wait a little longer.”
Then it was my turn at the counter so I didn’t see or hear at minutes what had happened, but when I was leaving I noticed that the girl let the woman go first while she tried to hide her annoyed facial expression.
This thing got me thinking. I have never had an urge to plead about my medical background in anything. Even when I’m half dead, dragging my left leg along with me while using headrest and getting everybody stare at me and looking at me like I’m some kind of a freak. I have never wanted to take anything the easy way, when maybe I should have sometimes. I have had encounters where people have offered me their help when I have had my wrist worked up and I can barely get that coffee cup from shell to my tray at cafeteria line. And that is totally fine and awfully generous from other people to me.
But I haven’t never used it to get anything easier or more convenient Why would I? Why would anyone do that? I firmly believe that when you’re at your weakest you’re way more empowered than you feel and show. You just need to do that little effort, break out your comfort zone and just do it. There’s nothing wrong about asking for help, but you need to know when your asking for it just because it’s easy – and you can -, and when you really need it.
Had absolutely nothing to do, so since my make up gear were here I made “a wound” and started taking photos. Hope you enjoy!
I want to remind all of you awesome people something. Even though we pursuit these awesome, fit bodies, I wish to people to understand to look through the outside barrier when it comes to making friends and getting to know someone. Sometimes the most beautiful thing is wrapped inside this shell that doesn’t do justice on it.
I’m lucky. I have so many variety of friends that I can wish for: tall, short, fit, voluptuous, smart, geek, rocker, emo… Even have a few friends with a disabilities and they rock my world everyday. And I thank all of them for being who they are. Even though we wouldn’t get a long with all the subjects and things we discuss, I still like them a lot. They are awesome, way cooler than their outside form and we can agree to disagree things and still be friends.
“That’s always seemed so ridiculous to me, that people want to be around someone because they’re pretty. It’s like picking your breakfast cereals based on color instead of taste.”
Sometimes even the smallest gesture can make your day. This happened to me today:
I went to buy my meds at the local drug store. I have had pretty awful two days so far. From the moment I saw my pharmacist I felt good. She smiled at me, told me “Good morning” and did some chitchat which usually doesn’t happen here. Trust me. I was amazed but smiled back, handed my prescriptions and KELA card. She was so bubbly through the whole process. She told me that she’s gonna go and fed the meds and I just nodded and look at my watch.
Oh there’s so many things to do…
Then she came back and started putting those label things on the bottles. Then suddenly she asked me: “Are these you’re only drugs for RA?”
I looked at her and said “Yes.” She smiled at me back, this really wide smile and told me “Oh! That is so good, isn’t it?”
I was so baffled by her smile and the reality that she threw at me: Things could be worse.
I nodded and said yes. After a little silent moment I told her that many of my friends have the biologic drugs and they are whole different category to mine.
“Oh yes they are. So expensive and everything. But if this suits for you and it doesn’t ’cause any side effects it’s great! Glad that it’s working with you.” Her kindness made me feel stupid. I must have looked when I came to her station like the whole world stinks. And she was happy and kind towards me, even though my hard shell that I had put on me.But she changed it. I smiled. Smiled for the first time in days. I felt good although I had the stress banging my head with hammer. I paid my meds, thanked her and left.
Be nice to someone. Smile. Care. It can seriously make someone’s day.
This morning wasn’t my best. Car broke down just before I needed to go get my blood work done. Thank God my mom was at work and she could drove me there. Now gonna wait for the night and floorball practice, yay! Finally kicking butt to my flu.
I prefer winter and fall, when you feel the bone structure of the landscape. Something waits beneath it; the whole story doesn’t show.
Had pretty bad day. Didn’t get any sleep last night and the whole morning went by me looking at it from the passenger seat. Although got some squats done, it was pretty much that. Let’s hope that next week brings me more WO’s and smiles.
The most powerful weapon on earth is the human soul on fire.
There is an electric fire in human nature tending to purify – so that among these human creatures there is continually some birth of new heroism. The pity is that we must wonder at it, as we should at finding a pearl in rubbish.
Heat cannot be separated from fire, or beauty from The Eternal.
Stay strong guys and let’s kick some butt! : )
And so that no one won’t have any cravings after this, here’s some of our traditional Christmas foods:
As many of these foods don’t have a good English word I’m gonna somehow translate them and tell you guys what’s in them.
That’s about it guys. Hopefully you enjoyed my Christmas through pictures!